bloodvamp18

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Fear of Love itself by hippy-chick, literature

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Fear of Love itself

Fear of Love itself I'm scared, Scared of my own feelings, Of what they may mean for me Of what YOU mean to me. To love someone so much That you realise, That you couldn't cope without them, That I couldn't cope without you. I'm not used to needing people, To them meaning everything to me, So to feel so much for one person, Terrifies me. When your not used to missing people, When your not used to being that close. To suddenly fall head over heels, Lost like a blind man. And it's here that I find myself, Dependant on another, Longing for them, Knowing that my world would be a worse place without them. And so it sit and con

Do you feel the pain? by hippy-chick, literature

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Do you feel the pain?

Do you feel the pain? Always so cold And so heartless, Often I wonder if you're really made of stone. Your eyes; so lifeless, so dark. Like gaping tunnels without light at the end, Bleak, like the desolate plains of no man's land. Where there was once a spark dancing Like a naked flame, pure and alive, Now there is only black. You don't look at people You look through them. That distance tortures those who care. But do YOU care? Beneath that harsh exterior Is there a gentle soul locked within? It's so hard to reach you now. You just wont let me in. Not now that you can live inside your head. You make it so hard for me to lo

What have i become? by hippy-chick, literature

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What have i become?

What have i become? Nothing can make it all better now Nothing can ease the pain. Got no one who loves me Got no one who cares Not even me. I look in the mirror I don't recognise the creature staring back at me. That monster from my nightmares, It was real after all, And closer than i thought. Everyday i battle with myself Just to stay alive Did no one ever tell you There are worse fates than death? Believe me i know. My self loathing Spirals out of control I'm drowning And there's nothing to stop me So this is death. All alone in this echoey house Haunted by my demons I hide in a corner and wonder; What have i become?

Hollow by hippy-chick, literature

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Hollow

Hollow You've never felt so empty as you do now, A mere shadow of what you once were. Consumed by your grief and enveloped by your guilt, You rattle around in your twisted mind, full of despair. You merely go through the motions of life, Feeling nothing but the pain That refuses to fade. T'is but a half-life you lead. Condemned to forever wander, From one world to the next. Haunted by your past, Terrified of your future. So dark have been your dreams of late, But darker still your reality. All the demons and monsters you thought were fake, Are alive in you today. Forever will you cling to her, It's her memory that destroys y

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merman by bloodvamp18, visual art

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About bloodvamp18

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United States
Deviant for 18 years
She / Her

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Current Residence: look behind you...
Favourite genre of music: all kinds
Favourite photographer: no clue. i don't know of any.
Favourite style of art: not sure
Operating System: computer
MP3 player of choice: naw i'm good
Shell of choice: i don't know what is it called.
Wallpaper of choice: anime
Skin of choice: what kind of question is that?
Favourite cartoon character: ariel
Personal Quote: suicide does not kill people...saddness does.

Favourite Visual Artist

my friends raven and kelly

Favourite Movies

the little mermaid

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

cascada

Favourite Writers

not so sure yet

Favourite Games

well right now... Kingdom Hearts

Favourite Gaming Platform

x-box

Tools of the Trade

saftey pin

Other Interests

writting and drawing. i love music

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bloodvamp18

Jun 28, 2008

stuff i never knew about myself. how weird.

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ok well my cuz said i could borrow this from her so i am. muhahahah! My Life According to Google... Type in the following and choose the first choice... 1: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search: Kayla needs a guy she can keep 2: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search: Kayla looks like maybe the funniest person alive. 3: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search: Kayla does karaoke at 16 months (wow i had no idea) 4: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search: kayla hates bugs. 5: Type in "[your name] goes" or "..has gone" in Google search: Kayla goes into labor while on trial for killing Marina. ( i hav

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bloodvamp18

Oct 23, 2007

sticky paper of deth

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ok well i was watching tv and out of nowhere a blue jay and my cat kira come in the house. the bird is flying everwhere around the family room and kira is jumping up on tables,chairs, and the couch trying to get this damn bird and well he is trying to get the bird and so am i and so this is making the bird freak out even more. then of all things my other cat comes in from out side and starts chasing it. luckily it it in perfect health and can fly real well. so i scream for my mom and it takes her forever to get there. so the bird is flying around and get stuck to some fly paper we have hanging from the ceiling i was mortified. i thought it wa

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bloodvamp18

Oct 4, 2007

you don't really know who i am.

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i am going to start doing a journal on here from now on. i usually only have a journal on myspace, but i seem to be on here more often so ya. well today i broke down in lunch i try sooooo hard not to show any emotion when i am at school or around people, but lately that hasn't really been happening. in case you all want to know what that means. well every day of every week i hide behind my mask. so what that means is that usually the more happy and hyper i act the more sad and depressed i really am. i don't really know why i am telling you guys this. maybe i just finally want people to actually like me for what i really am. i have hid behind

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danzr4ever

Oct 6, 2009

Thanks for the watch!

KakeranoTsuki

Apr 3, 2009

Thanks for the fav ^^

LilSasami13

Mar 5, 2009

Thanks for the favs.^^

If you like TB, I have tons in my gallery. XD

Thank you for the

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karulox

Dec 27, 2008

hey thanks so mucho for the faves

Umeki

Aug 24, 2008

Thanks so much for the fave!